I have been playing a "so called" Tug of War game recently and all I can come up with is... You are a Gemini, it's part of you! The experiences I have had with Bryce have given me so much strength, a lot of independence and shown me that I want to live every moment of my life to the fullest. It has shown me that my needs are important, not just making others happy, which is what I generally do. So the curse of the Gemini "Twins" has set in as I struggle with where I want my life to go.
Let's explore this a little bit. The Gemini loves to entertain, they are magnanimous in offering their friendship to people, they have the gift of gab, they are witty, cunning and can juggle multiple tasks and are usually charismatic. They are possessed of very active minds and bodies, and are often much younger-looking than they really are. But then there is the "other side", the so called TWIN... The Gemini is excessively spontaneous, which can be viewed as reckless and flirtatious. Gemini's can also be very indecisive changing their minds every 15 minutes. Even though they are witty, there are also the times when they cannot simply make up their minds; especially if the matter seems to excite them. They love novelty and change, but in areas concerning love and career, this personality may not work for their own good. The Gemini Likes: Talking, Novelty and the unusual, Variety in life, and multiple projects going at once... The Gemini Dislikes: Feeling Tied Down, Being in a rut, Mental inaction...
So where are you going with this Amy?!? Well, the past few weeks I have been struggling... I feel like I am "in a rut". I feel like I am "tied down" that I need to have "variety in life"... With everything that has happened I kind of feel like I am in a new world, a world where anything is possible and I need to find out what direction I want to go in and where I fit. My whole life I have taken great stride in making sure I keep the "Gemini tendencies" under control. I don't like hearing "Oh you're a Gemini... it's the Twin talking". I have always liked my sign and found that it was fairly true to me, but I have a hard time when people are mad at me so I try and keep the mood swings (per-say) in check. Recently, however, I have found that as i'm searching for my own happiness I am falling into almost every personality trait of the Gemini. As I move forward in my quest for my own happiness I am getting flighty and sporadic, I know what I want hands down, no questions asked one minute and the next I am off in la la land again trying to justify to myself that it would be ok to move forward. I feel like I am in a battle with myself for happiness, trying to figure out how to achieve what I want for me!
"Everyone loves a Gemini because everyone loves a schizophrenic."