Thursday, July 21, 2011
Destiny or "Choose Your Own Adventure" ... You decide!
Life, it's full of ups and downs, detours and obstacles. How we choose to get around those obstacles is a decision we have to make when we reach "the fork in the road". But what if destiny does exist what if our lives really are mapped out for us, what if it's not really a "Choose Your Own Adventure"? Is it possible that everything really does happen for a reason and that we need to just have faith that something amazing will come of what we have been through. Let's see where the "crazy" lady is going with this shall we.
Yesterday American Airlines announced that it was going to "spin off"...polite way of saying Get Rid Off... American Eagle, the regional carrier. This has been the buzz for several years but the official announcement was made yesterday and is really kind of devastating for someone who say...works for American Eagle Airlines... like oh ME! My Facebook news feed has been blowing up with friends freaking out over what a "Spin off" means for us, where does that leave us, what does that mean...will we have jobs, will the company be able to stand alone? After everything that we have been through the past 2 years with Bryce, I calmly said to my mom, when she too started getting worried about "what that means" ... I am not worried at all. What it means is possibilities, it means change, it means new direction...what ever happens George and I will be ok. I LOVE my job, I love working for the airline, I love having the ability to travel, I really enjoy the position that I am in, but I am not going to stress myself out over what the future holds as no one really knows right now. I will "choose my adventure" when the fork in the road appears, until then it's business as usual.
Have you ever had a conversation with one of your parents where you sit there staring at them wondering who is sitting across the table from you. It can't possibly be "MY" mom, the words coming out of her mouth are far from what I expected to hear. Well, yesterday at lunch my mom and I were talking about the future and the possibilities of American Eagle changing completely. I was expecting my mom to say things like "what about money, you have bills to pay", "Be responsible, maybe you should look for another job now"... But instead she said, I think the Airline was given to you at a time that you needed it. Disney was a great experience for you but the Health Insurance would not have been able to support Bryce's needs as well as American did. You were brought to Texas because it was the best place for Bryce (mind you Bryce was born 2 years after we moved here). You had access to the best hospitals, American Airlines provided an outstanding Health Care Plan and the position you were in offered you a very flexible schedule so you were able to work while Bryce was in treatment. Perhaps now "that journey" is coming to an end. Wow, mom...WOW.
I Love my job and will stay with it as long as it exists. If American Eagle stands strong I want nothing more than to stand beside it and continue working. But if the company can not stand on its own or can not find another Mainline Carrier to partner with, I kind of want to try my hand at full time "mommy". For my friends that know me well, you can get up off the floor now... I know you just fell out of your chairs. But, Bryce has changed so much in my heart. Wade starts Kindergarten next month. I want to get up in the morning and make him breakfast, taking him to school and then come home, clean the house, run errands, get dinner going and then go back and pick him up from school. I don't want to have to rely on after care or my mom. I want to be Susie Homemaker, cooking (yes yes I know I would need to take lessons on that one), cleaning, and taking care of my family. Life comes at you so fast, people really need to slow down and realize that family and friends are what's important, not "things". I want to be able to enjoy life more, play at the park (when it's not 100 plus degrees outside), do what Wade wants to... dinner at 6pm at the dining room table, as a family... Perhaps our parents, and grandparents, were on to something there!
So as my "Choose Your Own Adventure" book comes to a Fork in the road I hope that "destiny" or Bryce can find a way to make it the most amazing option possible for our next adventure!
If you can find a path with no obstacles, it
probably doesn't lead anywhere. ~Frank A. Clark